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11. april 2017

The Three Sisters

“Why do people keep trying to put this blanket on me?”
“Because you’re in shock”
“That doesn’t mean I need a blanket. It means I need booze”
“You can’t have booze, you idiot! That will make your condition even worser!”
“Worse? No, no, no, it will make everything sooo much better”
“No booze!”
“Oh, boo hoo, Caroline, you are no fun!”
“Adrielle, get in your stupid head, that you was just in a fucking car accident, and got a concussion! So you can’t for the love of God drink any booze!”
“For the mother of love, don’t you ever use that word and the name of the Lord in the same sentence” a voice breaked through.
Both girls turned their heads around to see their older sister Kathryn stand in the doorway. Even though none of them have seen them in several years, Kathryn was as always classic dressed, wearing a black etui dress. Her hair was pulled tight back into a knot, and one of their mom's pearl necklaces filling out around her neck.
“Kathryn, what the hell are you doing here?” it came from Adrielle, her voice dripping with cold love for her elder sister.
“I heard about your accident. Or, I was actually called to, because apparently, I am still listed as your contact in case of emergency” Kathryn explained.
“God the fucking dammit” Adrielle cursed.
“I told you not to use the…” Kathryn started, but was interrupted by Adrielle, who abruptly stood up and looked at her sister with angry and hurtful eyes.
“You don’t to tell me any - fucking - thing, Kathryn! You freaking left us!” she yelled.
“Adrielle…” Caroline’s voice begged from behind her.
“No!” it came sharp from her, when she turned around at Caroline with a pointed finger. “You don’t get to defend her this time. She left us, Caroline! She left us right after our mother died! She left us with a drunken father! There is no fucking excuse to that betrayal!”
“But, Adrielle, she is our sister” the mouse voice of a little sister argued.
“I don’t give a shit if she was the queen of England or the President of the United States” Adrielle bellowed. “She. Left. Us.” she hissed every word with so much hatred, that you could feel the acid from her heart dripping out.
“Adrielle, if I just could get a chance to explain my reasons” Kathryn pleaded with her hand stretched out towards her younger sisters.
“Get out, Kathryn. I didn’t asked for you to be here. It was a mistake, that I didn’t changed my contact list the day, you left. You should never have been called. So get the fuck out of my home” Adrielle told with a harsh voice. She ranked her back to stand straight, and crossed her arms in the same movement.
“Adrielle, please…”
“Get out. Now!”
“For the family sake…” it came quietly from Caroline.
“If you want to join her, be my guest, Caroline” she told her baby sister, without breaking eye contact with Kathryn.
“I… I can’t choose between my sisters” stammered Caroline.
“Just go. Both of you” Adrielle ordered.
“But you can’t be alone! You have a concussion” Caroline argued.
“I will call someone else to come and take care of me. And now, get the hell out of my house, before I call the security to escort you”
Caroline went crestfallen past Adrielle to get out of the room. She didn’t wait for Kathryn to join her. Both the elder sisters could feel the hurt in her posture, and Kathryn tried to reach a hand out towards her, but retracted it, because she wouldn’t risk losing another sister over this visit. Before Kathryn went out of the door, she looked back at Adrielle.
“I really hope you know what you are doing, Adrielle” she warned, and then left the room.
Adrielle lost all the posture as she collapsed on the couch.
“I am way too sober to deal with this kinda shit” she mumbled for herself, before she reached out for the whiskey at the nearest bar chart.

31. august 2016

The sound of the sea

The leaves on the trees sound like the sound of the sea, when the wind is blowing up and the water is crushing against the shore. White foam leaving behind a trail of the sea along the coast. The sea goes in rythmic waves; hitting the shore and contracting in easy steady movements. Morning sun glistening in the surface of the blue colour; making it into a thousand different shades of blue, mixed with the red and orange colours of the sun. Seagulls screaming and flying around for the hope of food. Little bobbles farther out in the sea gives the sight of living creatures. A breeze from the side reminds that, even when the morning sun is there to warm the world up, it is still bright morning with all the cold, before the rest of the world come to life.

31. marts 2016

Allie & Rose

I woke up in the middle of the night with someone rattling around in the room.

“Allie, is that you?” I mumbled out, still half asleep.

“Oh sorry, honey. It wasn’t my intention to wake you. Just go back to sleep and I will join you in a few minutes.” I felt a peck on my forehead with that answer.

“Why are you back from work so late?” I asked, while I seated myself up in the bed. It would be meaningless to go back to sleep, since I knew Allie was really bad at being quiet.

“Everything got caught up in meetings. And people wouldn’t listen. I had to be the bossy one to make everyone understand. So it was a pretty tough day.” Allie answered tired, and yet still rattling around in the room, clearly looking for something.

“Allie, what are you even looking for?”

“I am trying to find my amulets. But I just can’t remember where I put them this morning.”

“That is because I already put them in your drawer, because I knew you would forget about them. Please, come back to bed and get some sleep. The adviser of the queen needs to sleep at some point.”

Allie stopped up and turned around. She was smiling bright at me, and I felt the butterflies in my stomach. How did I get so lucky to be with this girl?

“So, you are saying, that your adviser should join you in bed? Isn’t that kind of naughty for the queen, to be lying with one of her court members?” Allie smirked at me.

“Oh just shut up and get back to bed, you silly girl!” I laughed while I threw a pillow at her.

“How dare you to throw my own pillow at my face? You are a very bad queen of not satisfying our people!” she mocked and leaned down in front of me.

“How dare you to question your queen’s actions?” I grinned and took a grip on her collar to bring her down in bed with me.

“Okay, okay, you win, your Majesty! I bow in the dust of your feed!”

“Oh, for heaven’s sake, Allie, you sure as hell need some sleep, when you sound like that.” I laughed at her. Allie was the kind of girl, whose humor only gets worse, when she was tired. She didn’t respond to me, but just cuddled up against me and laid her arm over me, so she could hold me tight.

“Thanks for being understand about these late nights, Rose. It means the world to me that you trust me so much.” she whispered and gave me a little kiss on my neck.

“I wouldn’t lay that job in anyone else’s hands than yours. You are my world. I hope you know that.”

“I know. I love you, Rosalind.”

“I love you too, Allison.”

22. marts 2016

Prompt scripts #2


“What would that mean? That I am not capable of love?”
“That’s not what I’m saying, my dear. I’m saying, that you don’t have to search for a love to share your life with.”
“So I am doomed to live on my own?”
“You don’t listen to me, dear. You can have all the love you want, but you don’t have to commit to one person, or to one gender, for that matter.”
“But isn’t that what life's all about? Find the love of your life and live happily ever after?”
“No, dear, not necessarily. It is about finding a purpose in life, that you can live with. You have to follow your dreams, not just what society tells you to.”
“But I don’t know, what I want to do. How I am suppose to find my purpose in life, when I don’t even know what the next day will bring me?”
“That is the beauty of life. You can make all the mistakes you want, because that is the only way you will grow, and learn who you are.”
“But will people not look at me and think that I’m a total failure?”
“Yes, maybe they will, my dear, because that is how society is. But out there, there will be one person out of ten others, that believes you are the bravest person, they know. And those people are the ones you need to hold onto, because they will be at your side through thick and thin.”
“But how do you learn to find these people?”
“You don’t, you just know. It is the people that will give you a smile, even when you are sad, and give you a bigger smile in return, when you are happy. Those people will always reach their hands out to you, no matter what.”
“Grandma, how did you find those people?”
“Oh, my dear, that is a story for another day.”

24. december 2015

Liv & Jason

Jason was hovering about me, and I had to take a deep breath, before lightly pushing him away. He looked confused at me, while he sat back on his heels. “What is wrong?” he questioned, and I smiled. Even when we were on a completely different path with new signals to figure out, he still knew me. I sat up and placed myself in front of him. “Liv, what is wrong, tell me please?” Jason caressed my cheek, and I leaned into his touch. “It’s just that. I have never done this before” I said shyly and looked down. “Done what? Sex?” he asked, and I could hear the confused tone in his voice. I didn’t blame him. “Yeah” I nodded. “Seriously? But you and Emmett?” Jason dropped his hand in utter confusing. “We had quite the make out scenes, but we never actually did. We just got together to let the steam out” I peeked up at Jason, and could see that he was piecing the puzzle together. And then he smiled, when it finally hit him. “So virgin?” he asked gently, and I was too embarrassed to do anything than give him a small nod as response. Jason’s hand found its way back to my cheek and nuzzled it. “Don’t worry. Me too” it came from him. This time it was my turn to be confused. “Bu.. But Mike?” I stuttered. “Well, okay. Not as virgin as you. But I haven’t been with a girl before” he told me and I saw the pink stains on his cheeks. “Oh!” I said surprised, when it finally hit me and smiled when a devilish plan took form.

I moved over to him and straddled his hips. Jason flashed a big smile at me, before he gentled laid his hands on each side of my head. I leaned forward and rested my forehead against his, giving him a small smile. It was so odd to be this close to him, but it also felt like home. Jason opened his mouth as he wanted to say something, but I put a finger to his lips and shushed him. “Just kiss me” I told him, and that was all he needed. He kissed me softly, and I felt him relax under me. I laid my hands on his chest at the same time as his hands found their way to my waist. The sudden movements made me take in a deep breath that broke our kiss. But Jason didn’t hesitate for long and his lips found my exposed neck. I could feel his smile on my skin, when I took another deep breath, because of the sensation of his touch. “You are going be the death of me” I groaned, which earned a gentle bite from him. Right now I hated and loved that he knew me so well. We had shared a well amount of details about our failed love lives before. I hadn’t minded it, since he was into boys, or that’s what I thought at that time. Then my mind tricked a shared detail and my hands found their way under his shirt and I dragged my nails down his lower back. Jason arched up with a growl as he realized my revenge. “You little monster” he smirked, before he grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me wildly. His kiss left me breathless, but I soon recovered and my hands clung to his back. His other hand disappeared under the hem of my top and made small traces down my spine. I broke the kiss and leaned my head back while I moaned. I looked down at Jason, who had a devilish smile on his lips. “Payback” he grinned. “Definitely going to be the death of me” I smiled at ham, before I connected our lips again. Suddenly the door was pushed open with the following of Jason’s mom. "Jason, are you home?" she asked, but stopped abruptly when she saw her supposed-to-be-gay son in a very hot embrace with his best friend, who was a girl. Jason and I flew from each other, and I was very pleased that we were still fully clothed. “Hi, mom”, “Hi, Anne” we both murmured at the same time. Anne stood in the doorway with her arms crossed. “You are going to explain this tonight after dinner, young man” she said firmly, before closing the door and left us to our own embarrassment. Then Jason cracked up and fell back on the bed cackling with laughter, and I couldn’t do anything else than joining him in this madness.

When our laughter died down, Jason rolled over and propped himself up on one arm while the other was stretch out in front of him. He looked at me with a big goofy smile. “That was interesting”. I was rolled in a ball and had been clenching my stomach because of the laughing, so I released one of my hands and gently laid it on his outstretched arm. “Which part of it?” I smiled cockily. “Well, the part with my mom crashing into my room while we made out was definitely interesting, but I was actually thinking of the part before she so interrupted us” he smiled back and moved his arm, so that he could grab my hand and pull me closer. He leaned forward and gave me a tenderly kiss, while putting his hand around my waist to keep me there. “I’m not going anywhere” I assured him. I knew that he had been hurt before, and it definitely didn’t make it any easier that the ground was so unsecure under us. “I know, Liv. It’s just,” he sighed. “Jason, look, you don’t have to explain it. I know you, and I know that you need assurances about that I don’t leave you” I pecked him at the lips and shortly nuzzled his cheek. “But as long as this is comfy, I need to get up and stretch, before this takes us any further” I smiled with a blush, before I pushed myself up to a sitting position. Jason did the same, but in like two seconds he had his arms around me and just held me close. “Jason,” I started, but he shushed me. “Just stay here a moment, okay? I need you” he said with a muffled voice, since he had his face buried in the crook of my neck. I leaned back against him and gave him a kiss at his temple. “Always” I said and hugged his arms tightly into me.

22. december 2015

Kye & Amelia

Kye jumped over the small brick wall in one hop and without support from his hand. He turned around and looked at me. “Come on, Amelia. We don’t have the whole day” he gestured a hand towards me, but I reclined. “Not going to need help” I said while I took a few steps back, before setting in a sprint over the wall. But I did need support from my hand. I was athletic, yes, but I didn’t practice parkour as Kye did. And I sure as hell didn’t take chances. “Such a chicken” Kye laughed. “I’m not a chicken, Kye. I’m just not a daredevil as you are. Some of us like to keep our lives” I growled. “And yet you are here, out on a mission with me” I could see his smirk, even that his head was hide behind the hoodie. “Only because we are the best, and I’m the only one who can stick it up with your ego” I gave back, and heard his low chuckle.

We sneaked down the small alleys, before we got to our destination. Our job wasn’t completely legal, since we were stealing jewelry and crystals. And this night wasn’t any more different than another. Kye and I were the best in our clans, because of our skills. Both of us were equally skilled in fighting and athletics. Kye was the master in getting any physical lock open just with some few tools, and I was the master in getting behind any digital locks. So we were more than often paired together on missions, and as I said to Mister Ego himself, I was the only one who could stick up with him. Kye was about to walk out on the streets, but I stopped him. “Wait a minute” I said and straightened my back from the crumpling through the shadows. I took my backpack off, and then I took my coat off and handed it to Kye. “Hold it” I said, “Amelia, what are you doing? We don’t have time for this” Kye scolded. “Shut up and listen. We can’t go into that party unless we are looking like someone who is going to attend one. You already go black pants and sweater, so put this blazer on” I said and handed him a blazer from the backpack. “And what are you going to wear? You are in the exact same suit as I am” he asked. “This one” I pulled out a long sleeveless women’s shirt in black with a sparkly collar made of rhinestones. I heard a low whistle come from him, and I couldn’t help but smile. Quickly I threw my sweater off and put the shirt on. I duck down in the backpack once more and found a small pullover. Thank God, it was one of those warm evenings in the fall. I put our clothes in the backpack and hid it behind the container in the alley, before I let my hair fall loose. I collected it at the one side, and put some pins in my hair to keep it together. When I was ready Kye was giving me a look from head to toe. “Get over yourself, please” I said and took a small purse, which was already packed with our tools. “Are you ready now?” Kye asked with crossed arms and a smirk plastered on his face. “Yes, I am. Let’s go” I answered, “This way, my lady” he said, and held an arm out for me. I looked at him, give ham a small laugh and then hooked my arm under his.

Jake & Ellie

I ran directly into his arms and let myself surrender with his aroma. I didn’t think that missing another person could hurt so much. I felt him careful pull me away from him, and I looked up at him. His eyes were filled with worries. “What is wrong?” I asked. He took a deep breath and locked eyes with me. “I can’t do this anymore. It’s too much, Elvira” he said and took my hands in his. I just stood there with a blank face, until his words sank in. I yanked my hands away. “You can’t do this. You promised to be there for me” I started with tears in my eyes. “You promised!” I yelled, while I pointed my finger at him. “I know, Ellie” he started, but I cut him off. “Only my friends call me that” I snarled at him. His eyes dropped, knowing he was defeated. He had hurt me, and now I did the same. “Elvira, please don’t make it worse. You did know that it couldn’t be any more different. I told you from the start, that it wouldn’t work. That is was a short term decision” he told me, but I had heard it all before. “Get out” I just said. “Elvira, listen to me” he said and took a step closer to me. “Get out!” I said again. He raised his hand, as if he wanted to touch me. I took a step back, while I shot angry eyes at him. “El…” “Get out! Get out! Get out!” I screamed at him. I pointed at the door, not caring to look at him. I heard him turn around and walk to the door. I could hear on his footsteps that he waited for a reaction, but in the next few seconds he was out and the door closed behind him. As soon as the door was shut I broke down. I dropped down on the floor and hid my face in my hands, while the tears ran down my cheeks. I managed to duck down in my pocket after my phone, and sent one text with the word “Help”, before I crumbled together in a ball on the floor.

A half hour later I heard keys rustling and the door were flung open by the one, I had sent my text to. Jake took one look at me, slammed the door and ran to me, almost sliding on his knees to scoop me up from the floor and into his arms. “It’s alright, Ellie, I’m here now” he said, before I once again broke down with tears. He didn’t say more, just stroked my hair, while he rocked me back and forth. After a while he said “It’s Trey, right?” All I could do was to nod and sob at the same time. “I’m sorry, Ellie” he said, while he kissed me on the forehead and held me closer. I didn’t know how long we had sat on the floor, before I felt myself drift off to sleep. I could feel Jake shift around, before he lifted me up from the floor and into my bedroom. He turned the light off and laid down beside me, and I just crumbled against his chest, not letting go of his shirt. “I’m not going anywhere, Ellie. Don’t worry, I’m here when you wake up” he just said and hold me tight like he did before.

I woke up hours later and didn’t have a clue about what time it was or exactly where I was. Then I noticed that Jake’s arm was around me and our legs were tangled together. Jake must have felt my stirring around, because suddenly he tightened the grip around me and mumbled “Stay”. I smiled at him and put my head on the pillow again. “Okay, sleepyhead” was my answer to him. We laid so close, that I could feel his smile against my neck. “Shut up and sleep. It’s 2 in the morning” and I gladly took his request.

3. november 2015

Prompt scripts #1


I always remember your feather light touches during the day. They are burned into my skin, and I shiver just remembering it. I love all about you; your warmness when I cuddle into you; your fluffiness when you lay your covers over me. I miss you every day I am away from you. You don’t know how much you mean to me. You support and comfort me every time I am sad. You lull me to sleep, when I need it the most, but you also keep me up, when I am most excited for things to happen. Every day I can come home and see you, and see the sleepiness in your eyes, and I smile at the sight of you. Because no one is there for me as you are. All the times we had great times with our two best friends, where we just cuddled together in a pile and watched all the sad, romantic and bad movies, we could find. You never leave me behind no matter what happens. That is why I love you.

10. oktober 2015

A fashionista zebra

"Kayla, snap out of your daydreams and get your butt in here! I need you to zip me up!” Melinda yelled at me. “Coming, you helpless zebra!” I yelled back and laughed. That was her, my best friend for the last 15 years. She and I knew each other better than anyone else. I walked into Melinda’s dressing room to help her. She was getting ready for the gala at her high school.

“Did you just call me a zebra?” she smiled to me.
“Yes, I did, Mel. Your hair reminds me of a zebra"
“Well, then I’m the most fancy zebra, you’ve ever seen, because I don’t recall zebras having pink and purple colours”
“Okay fashionista zebra. Do you need me to zip you up or not? I don’t think your date is gonna wait forever”
“Peter isn’t even here yet, so do you mind take a chill? It’s not even you, that are going on a date tonight” she said and turned her back to me, so I could zip her dress up. She had been looking for the perfect dress in months and had dragged me on every single shopping tour, even thought that I hated it. But I gladly did it for my best friend. It was a purple one, her favourite colour, so it was matching her hair. It was long and had lace patterns on the bottom and glimmer on the top.

“So how do I look?” Melinda asked and twirled around.
“Like a fashionista zebra” I laughed and earned a sweater thrown after me.
“Would you for once just tell me the truth and stop goofing around, Kayla?”. She looked me dead serious in the eyes, and I knew she was insecure about the whole evening. I wasn’t going to be there, since we didn’t go on the same schools. She was a private high school student, and I was just a regular.

"Melinda, trust me, when I say this. You look absolutely stunning and Peter couldn’t be a more luckier guy than going with you to the gala” I told her honestly. She smiled wide back to me. “Thank you, Kayla. You always know what to say to me”.
“That’s because I’m your best friend, Mel” I said and hugged her.

30. august 2015

The Regent and the General: The Training Ground

I grabbed the collar of Illa’s dress and brought her face close to mine. “From now on I take care of Callie’s training!” I hissed angrily, before I let go and turned around to get to Callie. It wasn’t easy, since a large field around Callie was frozen. She was a lot more scared than before, because she had discovered what was going on with her. “Callie!” I yelled at her, but my voice drowned in the newly emerged wind. “Fucking great” I whispered under my breath. Not only was Callie’s water element out of control, now she was so freaked out that the wind has decided to join the game.

“CALLIE!” I yelled at the top of my lungs, and thanked myself for being so commanding over the guards, so that my voice would boom over the wind. And that worked, because Callie turned around and looked in my direction. I could see that she couldn’t focus on who I was or where I was standing. Her right arm was crossed over her chest, while the left one was clutching to her stomach, and I could see that she was breathing very rapidly. I knew those signs very well. “Callie!” I yelled again. This time she looked at me, and I hold my gaze to her, while I slowly walked over the ice. “Callie, listen to me” I saw her body stiffen due to the concentration of having to listen to my words. “You need to focus on my voice and come back to me”. She shook her head from side to side. “Just focus on my voice, Callie, and nothing else” I said calmly. I was only steps away from her when the wind suddenly stopped and the ice began to melt. It happened at the same time as Callie collapsed on her knees.

I didn’t waste my time and ran over to her. I took her head in my hands and looked her in the eyes to hold her focus on me. “Listen to my voice, Callie, and come back to me”
Slowly, but steady, I could see that she was starting to focus again, and I saw the relief in her eyes when she found out that it was me in front of her. She tried to talk, but I shushed her. “Don’t talk, just focus on my voice. You are going to be all right” I said, while my thumb automatically began to nuzzle her cheek. “I’m right here, love” I told her and didn't care about that I just had declared my love for her in a situation like this. But it didn’t matter at all when I saw the smile in her eyes and she silently whispered “I know, Megan”

The Regent and the General: The Panic Attack

I didn’t know what to do. The panic was starting to spread in my body, and I couldn’t breathe. My fingers were trembling, and I really just needed some air. My brain was starting to throb against the skull, and I felt the migraine creep up from behind and take over the entire left side of my head. I really hated it, when the panic attack took over me completely. I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t focus at all. I thought I heard some glass shatter in the background, but I wasn’t sure.

I felt something warm in my hand, but I didn’t take notice of it. In the distance I could hear voices calling at me, but I couldn’t focus on who it was or what they were saying. I stumbled across the floor and felt hands reaching for me, probably to hold me up. I tried really hard to focus on their faces, but it was just blurred lines, so I shot my eyes closed. Their hands tried to get me to sit down, but I just bashed their hands away. For fucks sake, I didn’t want their stupid help. I just wanted to be alone.

But then I heard that one voice, I would recognize anywhere in the world. It was her voice. The voice, I thought, I lost the right to hear a long time ago. But she was here, and I didn’t understand how.

“Megan” her voice called out in my foggy mind, and tears instantly ran down my cheeks. I reached my hand out for her, but since I still couldn’t focus, my hand just grabbed out in the empty air. I let out a sob, because my mind realized that she wasn’t there, like all the other times I had broken down and dreamed about her presence. Then I felt her small warm hands cupping my face, and once again I heard her voice. This time she whispered my name, but I could hear it loud and clearly. “Megan, listen to me” it came calmly from her, like we were having a normal conversation and not me broken down in front of her. “Focus on my voice, and come back to me, love” she used the words I have told her so many times before. The exact words that I used to pull her out of her misery, and now she was using them to help me. I blinked a few times and then her face was bright and clear right in front of me. Her expression was filled with concern, but when she saw that I was coming back to focus, her expression changed. I saw her eyes smile with the brightest light, and her mouth also smiled a little. “That’s right, Megan. Just come back to me, I’m right here” she whispered, and I opened my mouth and then closed it again. “Don’t talk. Just focus on my voice, alright? You will be okay, but you need to focus” she told me with a voice that wasn’t up for debate. I just nodded silently and took my time to focus on her words, while she was holding my gaze to her, so I didn’t go out of focus again.

Slowly my breathing began to be normal again, and I heard the words “Breathe in, breathe out. Focus on that”. My eyes started to collect the blurred lines into the outlines the things around me had. I saw Gina and Eliot stand right behind Callie and they both looked very worried. “Don’t focus on them, my love. Just focus on me” she said and I turned my eyes back to hers. The pain in my head throbbed as did the cut in my hand. I noticed that I was clenching the hand very tight, so that the blood wouldn’t spill on the floor. Eliot noticed it as well and came over and put a bandage on my hand without saying a word. “Look at me” said Callie to me, and I looked her in the eyes. “Are your fingers trembling?” she asked, and I looked down on my hands. My fingers did shake a little bit, but not as bad as when the panic rushed through my body. And that was when I noticed that the panic attack had stopped. I could breathe fine again, and I felt calm inside. The only remaining signs were the pain in my hand and head. I looked up at her again, and saw the smile that was on her face, because she knew exactly what I just had discovered. “I said you will be fine, love” she smiled even more. “Callie” I finally spoke and once again broke down with tears, while I threw myself in her embrace and felt her arms around me for the first time in many months.